And I cant figure out why some things are like they are.
You know, why is it that the slowest person on the road is always in front of me, and going the same direction that I am going?
And WHY do we even care about this "Octomom" and what her mental state is and how much she looks like Angelina Jolie, and who the father of her litter is.
And WHEN are they going to convict the murdering, lying little twit Casey Anthony for the cold blooded murder of a sweet, innocent little 2 year old who just happened to be her daughter?
And why do I miss hearing my moms voice on the other end of the telephone, especially when I didnt talk to her on the phone as much as my other sisters did? And why do I hear her voice sometimes in my dreams?
And why is it so hard to convince a grown man (my dad) that living hear his family here will not be a bad thing, but a good thing for someone who has just lost his partner of 70 years..... sigh
Friday, March 6, 2009
I thought about it...
Posted by Tonjia at 7:05 PM
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I get the slow person everywhere I go...grocery store, road, etc. Sick sick sick of Octomom and Bernie Madoff (sp)
Hon, the Mom thing will continue for awhile, but you'll be okay with time. Hurts, but it'll be ok.
Your Dad? Stubborn men. It hasn't been long. He'll come around. 70 years! Gosh. Sending you hugs cause you sound winter/life blah. I hear there's a lot of that going around. Do nothing and let the heart heal sweetie....
First I'm going to talk about your Mom because my jaw almost hit the floor when I read what you wrote about hearing your Mom's voice.
After my Mom died, my biggest fear was that I would forget the sound of her voice. Because she lived in Arizona and I lived here in Minnesota, our communication was largely on the phone. Hours and hours on the phone. And everybody always said that we sounded exactly the same, especially on the phone. But I never really thought that was true. I had just talked to her on Sunday morning, and found out she died Monday night. I just could not bear the thought of forgetting how her voice sounded. On March 23, it will be 10 years that my Mom died, and I am happy to report that I still can hear her voice in my head.
As for the being "okay with time" well...I guess that's partly true, but partly not true. Of course you'll be "okay." What choice do you have. But it changes you, losing your Mom; at least it did me! I find that I actually miss mine more as time goes on, but...it is easier to handle and being able to think about the fun, good times (which are easier to think about, with time)helps a lot. Of course, we're all different in the way we react to things, but I'm telling you all of this just to let you know that you are not alone. Bottom line? Yes, you will be just fine--all while still missing your Mom.
And I am so with you on Casey Anthony. She is a dangerous sociopath and this needs to come to its rightful conclusion fast. At the risk of sounding harsh, I hope she fries. That poor, beautiful little girl.
As for Octopus(sy)...she is a whack job. Who, in my estimation, looks just as much like a gargoyle as she does Angelina Jolie. And who cares? The more she talks, the more I think she, too, is a walking personality disorder. Her poor 14 children. The media needs to dump her ass; deprived of the attention she so needs, I'm thinking she will shrivel up and sink back into oblivion where she belongs.
As for your Dad, I'm not even going there. I failed miserably at "taking care of Dad after Mom dies"--well, actually, HE failed miserably, but I feel guilty. So I'm NOT going there. At least you have siblings so you're not trying to knock some sense into him alone.
Big hug, Tara...it's not easy.
Tonjia, so sorry to hear that these emotions are going on so strongly. I am sure it is a roller coaster ride day after day. I just can not begin to understand how it feels and I know the time is coming for me as well. I spend as much time with my mom as I can. We had a horrible relationship growing up and even after I was married. Heck even after I divorced and remarried. It has been only in the last 7-10 years that we have gotten close. But these last years have been really good. So I am so sorry for you loss, but I honestly think it is cool you hear your mom in your dreams, or in your head or where ever. Good for you. And your poor dad, I don't hold much hope that he will leave "their home" to come be closer. I hope he does, but I won't hold my breath. Just try to make him see how much you WANT him there close to you. Good luck on that. Hugs and love to you from Oklahoma. Take care!
Hearing your mom's voice is such a beautiful thing. I hope that stays with you forever. And your Dad, I am sure he will come around eventually. This is a huge adjustment for him. I am sure he feels (and probably won't admit) slightly overwhelmed about it all.
I always get stuck behind the slow people too. Drives me insane. :)
Octomom and that Anthony chick should be strung up. Just sayin'.
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